Good luck in present, past, and in the future, meow!

i think it's about time for a goodbye. I am an extremely sentimental person and constantly shift myself through and atop the border of being a hoarder of all things i care about, and so saying 'goodbye' is one of the worst things possible to me.
I have never used the phrase or word with the people who i grasp close to me, nor would i ever see myself willingly doing so.
i wanted to look internally for what this has to do with the free company and myself, and i find that i'm tired without even trying to do so.

I'd forever be grateful if you took this on a spiritual level rather than something on a personal level [other than my own].

Bare with me. Terrible writing can easily get worse–literally, a nonsensical wall of text.

These following paragraphs will be a message as member of the FC for 10 months.
With how i refer to Espers United as simply an FC and not as an individual structure or a unique entity, i still mean this in the most respectful way that i can. The reason that i do that being?.. well,
have you ever been hospitalized and sitting in the bed with morphine running to keep the excruciating pain down?
i choose to be the sort of person who asks for it to be taken off–i am odd in this way and there is no explaining why i feel the way i do about certain things in my life . . .

As Nine has said to me recently, Stein, Nine and i have been around since the game hit the stores; Nine has crafted thousands of things for everyone. Stein and i had run hundreds of dungeons & trials with individuals by the virtue that they were people in Espers United, but none of that activity has originated from us as of lately or since months ago.
If i am talking about pain as i have done so in this very passage, i am not talking about pain tolerance and i am not creating an analogy of my experiences here.
i am here to share that i have nothing to speak to how much we've cared about you guys (and girls) until we found ourselves not caring very much or very much longer.
That is to say situations in all of our lives constantly change for the worse, and that general statement can be true because we are quite similar to each other as people.
We are all depressive and moody towards others due to the weaknesses in our character–i am depressed, or moody, and see that as a healthy part of living.
For someone who thinks about those things, considering myself is high for priority.

The idea of it being ten months means nothing to me because sixty percent of that has been surrounding myself with potential friends and friends of those friends. I can honestly see these same people viewing me as a complete farce or absurdity of the kind of person i used to be.. through a week of bad play or from the way i can react to certain things. There are easily hundreds of things that i haven't listed or haven't thought about that could risk our friendships and the way we interact.

In the end, these are still the people who accept me and enjoy the way that i talk and play. i find that i (on a personal level) can only be grateful for the things we've said to each other or the general successes and failures we've had, even if it meant that i spent less and less time with the rest of groups who may or may not have made it all possible, or despite the regrets i have for not talking more than i have.

The FC–Espers United–is in fact a larger part of my experience in game and of recent note, it's been a larger part of my experiences out of game for which i am happy for. The opportunity to talk and make work has come to me at the times where it isn't easy to come out of the den to help the opportunities by myself.

The rest of these paragraphs are to talk about the beginning and what was more than just fourty percent.

The reason i can leave without feeling worried is because i believe you can succeed without Marcoux, without Lulu, without Momo, or without a reason to play.
You can succeed outside of the game as well as from the outside looking inwards. All you have to do is care and give solace to the fact that you die through your very own actions and beliefs–more importantly, you're giving solace or support to the fact that you have full control over how your gaming experience will go and what your ideas will be.

I am not here to tell you how to play or enjoy a game, but you are here to play a game to enjoy it or to play a game that has meaning to you.

Give your officers and peers more than the attention they need and they will help you all the way to the finish line (vtech not included. Find your finish line through your peers and the people you treat as friends, not as strangers. Treat strangers as friends to increase your chances at times, or play alone to find the Goldilocks story.. just for you.

but the advice i want to give you is that i want you to be happy and reasonable with how you are and what you're doing. Me–i am some stranger to you, some foreign business, architecture, or perhaps something that looks like a potato sack–wanting you to be happy and successful with what you can do.
Your unhappiness and negativity extends and reaches through other people's negative points in life or ideals. You can be the reason why someone's day is made or destroyed, or you can become a reason why there's a merit to being indifferent about gaming and life.

The fact that all this can happen means your life and your play is up for grabs. It is forever a free-agency for what has become a capable Free Company full of individuals just like you.

I believe there's nothing keeping us from being friends or in other words, people from being friends with other people; only circumstance and time are barriers.

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Have fun ♪
and see you around( !! )

If you still want to talk i am free to do so and happy & willing.

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